The answer

The answer

In my mind

When everything is still

I can feel the answer light a path from the darkness

At once like the wings of a butterfly

It silently drifts toward me

Only when I am still can I appreciate its beauty

But more often then not the excitement of discovery

Pushes it away from the flame within me that drew it so close

It will return?

As sure as I know my name I know it will be back

One kindred spirit beckons another

Crossroads / The Final Battle

Crossroads / The Final Battle

Within me has always been conflict

The eyes which stared back at people

Always held a spark of anger ready to be unleashed

As naturally as one breath to the next I fought for everything before me

Once awoken my need to prevail consumes me leaving a path of destruction

Whatever weapon within my grasp is fair game in my minds eye

In that moment I would sacrifice anyone because no one was safe against my wrath

Childish thoughts never took hold in my mind. That was a step a surely skipped

Words that passed through my lips held the power to wound like a dagger against the flesh

When challenged I would stand tall knowing my opponents would weaken before a single tear could fall down my face

Should I change crossed my mind as the casualties piled up before me

What good is the company of shadows when you are alone in the light

Crowds know of my talents and the brave stand by me

Believe I could never hurt them until I too believed the lie

Infections of the heart and soul can never be ignored so soon the fight began anew

Nothing stood against my attack as the sounds of the crash ringed in my ears

Around me the frenzy the was beautiful

The fire within me finally expelled till everything in its path was burned

Who could survive staring directly at the sun

Who could believe once it burned you it held no ill will to you

Words could never erase the truth or settle a frightful mind

In the barren land finally the tears fell

What good is victory when all your company is dust

On my knees, as my strength had fallen away, a hand touched my shoulder

They had seen it all I know, as it was reflected in their eyes

Bringing me to my feet, they tended to my wounds inside and out

Laid bare I am at their mercy with all my weapons and shields gone

Vulnerable to whatever they wanted to inflict on me

One heart beat after another passed until the damage was undone

Until the battle was a memory of how far malice unchecked could grow

Peace is never the absence of evil but the understanding of its presence

Scars now line my soul as a reminder of all that I lost

There is nothing left to hide when I look in the mirror and for that I am grateful

The worst of my mistakes fill my mind but no longer rule my heart

What is strain and abandonment from those around me when the darkness never leaves me

Shelf

Shelf

Looking across the room

Still can’t explain

Why out of everyone

I’m the one you ignore

If I was smart I’d let it go

Though if I was honest

You only matter

Because I don’t matter to you

Because I can’t put you

On the shelf, in your place

With all the others

What is it about me

What is it about me

What is it about me

Always looking for the chase

Going out of my way

Making plans, making schemes

To get that person’s attention

Someone I know isn’t what I need

Someone half afraid to be near me

To break down their walls 

Then trumple all over till

They are left in crumbles

What does it say about me?

That the people I want most

Are the ones I will most likely

Hurt the deepest? 

My worst day

My worst day

My worst day

Lost, alone, traveling in the dark

One mistake

Panic​ filled me

Then shame

Then I planned

Then I ran

Despite my fears

I cared on

Ugly tears line my face

My worst day

Naked, afraid, emotional

I remain

Mistakes weakened me

But I cared on

Alive for the first time in years

Awake to watch

Me fight

To act and live

Alive on my worst day

And anyone who take it over

There own