The answer

The answer

In my mind

When everything is still

I can feel the answer light a path from the darkness

At once like the wings of a butterfly

It silently drifts toward me

Only when I am still can I appreciate its beauty

But more often then not the excitement of discovery

Pushes it away from the flame within me that drew it so close

It will return?

As sure as I know my name I know it will be back

One kindred spirit beckons another

Crossroads / The Final Battle

Crossroads / The Final Battle

Within me has always been conflict

The eyes which stared back at people

Always held a spark of anger ready to be unleashed

As naturally as one breath to the next I fought for everything before me

Once awoken my need to prevail consumes me leaving a path of destruction

Whatever weapon within my grasp is fair game in my minds eye

In that moment I would sacrifice anyone because no one was safe against my wrath

Childish thoughts never took hold in my mind. That was a step a surely skipped

Words that passed through my lips held the power to wound like a dagger against the flesh

When challenged I would stand tall knowing my opponents would weaken before a single tear could fall down my face

Should I change crossed my mind as the casualties piled up before me

What good is the company of shadows when you are alone in the light

Crowds know of my talents and the brave stand by me

Believe I could never hurt them until I too believed the lie

Infections of the heart and soul can never be ignored so soon the fight began anew

Nothing stood against my attack as the sounds of the crash ringed in my ears

Around me the frenzy the was beautiful

The fire within me finally expelled till everything in its path was burned

Who could survive staring directly at the sun

Who could believe once it burned you it held no ill will to you

Words could never erase the truth or settle a frightful mind

In the barren land finally the tears fell

What good is victory when all your company is dust

On my knees, as my strength had fallen away, a hand touched my shoulder

They had seen it all I know, as it was reflected in their eyes

Bringing me to my feet, they tended to my wounds inside and out

Laid bare I am at their mercy with all my weapons and shields gone

Vulnerable to whatever they wanted to inflict on me

One heart beat after another passed until the damage was undone

Until the battle was a memory of how far malice unchecked could grow

Peace is never the absence of evil but the understanding of its presence

Scars now line my soul as a reminder of all that I lost

There is nothing left to hide when I look in the mirror and for that I am grateful

The worst of my mistakes fill my mind but no longer rule my heart

What is strain and abandonment from those around me when the darkness never leaves me

Screaming 

Screaming 

It feels good

To do all you can

To do all you must

No one can say

I didn’t care

No one can say

I didn’t try

There is a peace in knowing

All the screaming in the world

Will not change the facts

Will not change your mind

It feels good

To let it all go

To let it all go

Knowing there was nothing more I can do

Knowing I couldn’t change the ending to your story

When you refuse to do 

What you need to do

It feels good

It feels good

When I say goodbye

Each word ends without regret

Inhabit

Inhabit

This flesh contains me

The me bursting within

I inhabit a space 

Not of my making

Limbs and bones

Grown together by plan

I’ve made it my own

Incomparable to others

Think of it as my will

Running freely across time 

Centred within a universe

Which could crumble at anytime

Which breaks, builds, and burns

All at once, for however long, for ever 

Fear

Fear

For as long as I live

There will always be something with me

A gift from my parents

That I would never return

Why they each time I faltered

Give me this gift of fear

I hope it was to protect me

But I know it wasn’t the case

They wanted to keep me small

Safe within the lens of their glaze

I’ve seen the smallness in my sister

I’ve seen the smallnes in my brother

The fear to go outside themselves

The fear to be what my parents needed 

That would never work on me

And I lived with the consequences 

But the point I’ve missed, forgotten, and stumbled upon time and time again

I’ve lived my life despite the fear

Resting in the back of my mind

I’ve lived my life no matter what

And I cannot live life any other way