He would be

He would be

ā€ˇMarks lining across my body

Stare back at me in the mirror

Each imperfection whispering

Each stop on my journey

Each person to cross my path

Hidden away under layers of clothing

Awaken only with the gaze of its equal partner

The sum parts of each destination

Wrapped tight under his skin

The answer

The answer

In my mind

When everything is still

I can feel the answer light a path from the darkness

At once like the wings of a butterfly

It silently drifts toward me

Only when I am still can I appreciate its beauty

But more often then not the excitement of discovery

Pushes it away from the flame within me that drew it so close

It will return?

As sure as I know my name I know it will be back

One kindred spirit beckons another

Crossroads / The Final Battle

Crossroads / The Final Battle

Within me has always been conflict

The eyes which stared back at people

Always held a spark of anger ready to be unleashed

As naturally as one breath to the next I fought for everything before me

Once awoken my need to prevail consumes me leaving a path of destruction

Whatever weapon within my grasp is fair game in my minds eye

In that moment I would sacrifice anyone because no one was safe against my wrath

Childish thoughts never took hold in my mind. That was a step a surely skipped

Words that passed through my lips held the power to wound like a dagger against the flesh

When challenged I would stand tall knowing my opponents would weaken before a single tear could fall down my face

Should I change crossed my mind as the casualties piled up before me

What good is the company of shadows when you are alone in the light

Crowds know of my talents and the brave stand by me

Believe I could never hurt them until I too believed the lie

Infections of the heart and soul can never be ignored so soon the fight began anew

Nothing stood against my attack as the sounds of the crash ringed in my ears

Around me the frenzy the was beautiful

The fire within me finally expelled till everything in its path was burned

Who could survive staring directly at the sun

Who could believe once it burned you it held no ill will to you

Words could never erase the truth or settle a frightful mind

In the barren land finally the tears fell

What good is victory when all your company is dust

On my knees, as my strength had fallen away, a hand touched my shoulder

They had seen it all I know, as it was reflected in their eyes

Bringing me to my feet, they tended to my wounds inside and out

Laid bare I am at their mercy with all my weapons and shields gone

Vulnerable to whatever they wanted to inflict on me

One heart beat after another passed until the damage was undone

Until the battle was a memory of how far malice unchecked could grow

Peace is never the absence of evil but the understanding of its presence

Scars now line my soul as a reminder of all that I lost

There is nothing left to hide when I look in the mirror and for that I am grateful

The worst of my mistakes fill my mind but no longer rule my heart

What is strain and abandonment from those around me when the darkness never leaves me

He does exist

He does exist

Maybe I am too narrow

The vision of the man

I would love to be with

Apprears so clear to me

He does exist

I felt him today

The quiet strength

Weird sense of humour

Insightful knowledge

He does exist

I met him today

But he doesn’t want me

But he doesn’t want me

I accept it

The one flaw I could find

Get over it (it being myself)

Get over it (it being myself)

To say

I have been

Going through the motions

Would be true

A few highlights

A few heart aches

Nothing standings out

Over a day, a week, a month

It ate away at me

Filling my mind with sand

I feel better now

Now that I stopped pretending

And acknowledged I need to be honest

To stop pretending and to start learning

To stop thinking I have all the answers

To stop letting people walk over me

Never again

Never again

Never again

Soft spot

Soft spot

It’s never easy 

Seeing someone walk away

Or being the one to do it

But it was necessary

No good was to come

There was no place to go

If it hurts to see you

So be it

You will always 

Have a place

In my heart

Untouched by the world

Away from it all

The moments before falling

The time we spent

Even though I had to say goodbye