Hold the elevator

Hold the elevator

One hour twice a day

Eight hours in-between

Is 3 minutes too much to ask for?

Is 3 minutes in the company of myself

Between all the responsibilities of the day

Too much to ask for

There is always another one coming

So let me have this one in peace

Forgive me as the door closes

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Complete

Complete

Lying back against my pillow

Slowly things are taking shape

The pressure within me has lessened a point

Where everything is making sense now that my mind is clear

In the darkness of my room I can see all the threads of my life coming together

Loose ends floating through my finally finding a place to rest

Months, weeks, days pass by in an instant

But no longer am I filled with disappointment

As my eyes drift and my mind begins the descent in sleep

I know everything has been worth it

Crossroads / The Final Battle

Crossroads / The Final Battle

Within me has always been conflict

The eyes which stared back at people

Always held a spark of anger ready to be unleashed

As naturally as one breath to the next I fought for everything before me

Once awoken my need to prevail consumes me leaving a path of destruction

Whatever weapon within my grasp is fair game in my minds eye

In that moment I would sacrifice anyone because no one was safe against my wrath

Childish thoughts never took hold in my mind. That was a step a surely skipped

Words that passed through my lips held the power to wound like a dagger against the flesh

When challenged I would stand tall knowing my opponents would weaken before a single tear could fall down my face

Should I change crossed my mind as the casualties piled up before me

What good is the company of shadows when you are alone in the light

Crowds know of my talents and the brave stand by me

Believe I could never hurt them until I too believed the lie

Infections of the heart and soul can never be ignored so soon the fight began anew

Nothing stood against my attack as the sounds of the crash ringed in my ears

Around me the frenzy the was beautiful

The fire within me finally expelled till everything in its path was burned

Who could survive staring directly at the sun

Who could believe once it burned you it held no ill will to you

Words could never erase the truth or settle a frightful mind

In the barren land finally the tears fell

What good is victory when all your company is dust

On my knees, as my strength had fallen away, a hand touched my shoulder

They had seen it all I know, as it was reflected in their eyes

Bringing me to my feet, they tended to my wounds inside and out

Laid bare I am at their mercy with all my weapons and shields gone

Vulnerable to whatever they wanted to inflict on me

One heart beat after another passed until the damage was undone

Until the battle was a memory of how far malice unchecked could grow

Peace is never the absence of evil but the understanding of its presence

Scars now line my soul as a reminder of all that I lost

There is nothing left to hide when I look in the mirror and for that I am grateful

The worst of my mistakes fill my mind but no longer rule my heart

What is strain and abandonment from those around me when the darkness never leaves me